I’ve been thinking more lately about why I train so hard and have made healthy living a priority. Don’t take this the wrong way, but I don’t care if I live a long life. Frankly, from what I’ve experienced so far, it’s not that great or getting better. I haven’t seen the wonders of the world, nor do I expect to travel to them. I haven’t surrounded myself with a large, loving family, and with every passing year that seems less feasible. I’m not rich in the material sense. So let’s be honest: I sure take good care of myself for someone who’s okay with dying young.
My hope is in Eternity.
Still, I can’t stop. For one thing, it’s not up to me when my number is up. Might as well make the best of it while I’m here. There’s also the simple fact that hard exercise, even when it’s a chore, makes me feel good. Preparing healthy meals, even when it’s more work than the drive-thru, provides results that taste good and make me feel good. Greasy food tastes good and then makes me wish for a swift end to my suffering. In a way, I suppose I’m addicted to healthy living and need a hit several times a day.
Who wouldn’t want an addiction that actually pays dividends?
From a practical perspective, being strong and lean gives me more opportunities (should they arise) and makes me more injury proof. If I go out on a hike and fall, I’m not going to damage already stressed joints with additional, excess weight. And recovery may take less time. Besides that, by being in good shape I’m less likely to fall. I remember one winter I nearly slipped on a patch of ice. My core engaged, I caught my balance, and didn’t strain anything doing it. Had I still been overweight and weak, it would’ve been a different story.
I’d still rather live in a place without ice half the year.
There’s also the mental/emotional aspect. When I ate garbage I felt like garbage. On days when I need to rest, I feel lost and like the world is spinning out of control. How can I uplift others when I myself am weighed down for reasons I can’t fully articulate? The workouts I do in the morning ground me and set the tone for the rest of the day, giving me a sense of accomplishment. Maybe I’m tired later, maybe I don’t seen results right away, maybe it seems in the moment as if I’m wasting my time. But later, I can look back in amazement at all I was able to do. I’m energized mentally and emotionally, even if I’m drained physically.
Usually, I’m also feeling energized physically too.
What I’m saying is that while I don’t care to live forever in this world like some creepy billionaires do, maintaining my health remains nonnegotiable. Having a good physique isn’t my only reason for living. Feeling good isn’t either. Living for the sake of being alive is just reductive. My purpose is to glorify God by creating good art and caring for others. I have a sense of purpose that goes beyond myself. But exercise and good habits equip me to fulfill my purpose with however much time I have left.
I don’t think any of this just applies to me.