Saying goodbye to a pet is always a terrible thing. From the moment we allow them into our lives we’re aware of the inevitable day, but we pray it will be a long time coming. Several years ago my sister decided that my mom and I needed a pet again, and found a duo the shelter said should stay together. Now I’m afraid they’re apart.
And we’ll go on as best we can.
The shelter had named the cats Willy and Tooty, and while we weren’t sure if they knew their names or not and didn’t want to change them, “Tooty” was unbearable. So we changed it to Trudy and welcomed them home. Being a torti, Trudy was very shy. Anyone who came by the house was lucky to catch even a glimpse of her. I quickly learned, though, once she trusted me, that she had a purr that could fill a room.
She was beautiful.
Always on the tubby side, she wasn’t much for play. Except for a catnip pillow. Sometimes she’d chase it around and catch it between her paws to chew on like tasty rodent. Food was better. I had to be careful, because she’d eat herself sick if the food dish had been empty when she arrived at it. Except for that bit of idiocy, she was a clever girl. Somehow she always knew when I was sitting in her favorite chair and magically appeared to hold me down with her considerable bulk and knead me.
When I’d say, “Alright!” she knew it was time to move.
She was a lover and when she came out of hiding, or after I’d had the audacity to neglect her all night to sleep, she needed all the attention. For the last few months, every morning when I got up she’d be underfoot, even running between my legs, begging for a belly rub. I’d start water heating for coffee and get down on the kitchen floor with her. As soon as the microwave chimed, she knew petting time was over.
Sadly, this weekend those days came to an end.
About the time I was getting up she suddenly started suffering unbearable pain. We gathered her up for a trip to the emergency vet at MSU, but I knew she wouldn’t be coming home again. It was everything I’ve feared would happen to Willy, and I never dreamed Trudy would be the first to go. The staff at MSU was great and didn’t keep us waiting long. When the young doctor took us back into an exam room and started explaining things, I could tell she was putting off the bad news. When she finally got to it she started getting emotional.
And, finally, so did I.
She took us to a different room, a quiet seating area for saying goodbyes, and brought Trudy wrapped in a blanket. I held the dear old girl while the doctor went for the euthenasia, and when she returned she noticed that even in her distress Trudy was kneading my arm. A lover to the very end. I held her until all the pain left her body and filled my heart.
Now, there’s one less little personality in the house.
We’ll be missing her for a long time.