Yesterday, as I was running up and down the stairs every few minutes to nurse the sump pump along and keep my basement from flooding, I read some short stories and worked on one of my own. The storms keep coming, but my plumber wasn’t coming anytime soon (and the pump fixed itself, anyway) so I braced myself for an all nighter. Fortunately, that didn’t turn out to be necessary, but it was a long and stressful day. Maybe it was by constantly exposing myself to the structure in stories which kept me relatively sane. I don’t know.
But it didn’t hurt.
For months now I’ve been struggling with a short story I was asked to write. I’d describe it as Philip Marlowe meets The X-Files, and I struggle with mystery stories. My deadline is looming, and it’s too late to turn back now, though! I like my characters and I think this is a story worth telling, even if I think I’m out of my depth. As I’ve worked on it, something didn’t feel right. Some essential element or story beat was missing.
I know to trust my intuition when it comes to Story, if nothing else.
My first inclination was toward self-doubt. Have I lost my touch? Next came panic. Should I toss it out and crank out a fresh idea? No, this time the only way out is through. Have a little faith! Now, it’s too soon to say if this will turn out any good. This isn’t a self-congratulatory essay. All I can tell you is what I did to keep going.