Here we are, my last post before Christmas!
We were spared the massive amounts of snow, but the wind is absolutely savage and it’s so cold even the road salt is useless. Needless to say, I’ve stayed in and encouraged the kid who delivers milk on Friday mornings to do the same. I’m well supplied with milk, yogurt, and eggs. I just hope I have enough coffee to last me until Tuesday. Otherwise I might go as crazy as the scientists in The Thing.
No one wants that.
Even without bad weather trapping us indoors, it’s easy to feel pinned down by the holidays, no much how liberation (or should I say libation?) we add to our eggnog. Maybe we trapped by obligation to family and tired family traditions. We have to share space with people who aren’t necessarily friends and now we feel like Kevin in the first act of Home Alone without the ability to be as bratty.
And maybe we do, not that it would help.
Or maybe we feel trapped in a loop of memories. The Ghosts of Christmases Past demand acknowledgment no matter how pleasant our present may be. Nostalgia is by definition intertwined with melancholy, and that’s okay. It’s good and healthy to remember the people we wish were still with us at Christmastime. It’s okay to be sad that they’re gone. There’s nothing natural about death, we weren’t created to cope with it. We were made for Eternity.
But God provides.
The gift we celebrate at Christmas, the ultimate Provision, is the arrival of Emmanuel, God with Us. Against all odds, a king was born in a barn and changed the course of human history. I hope if you’re reading this that you’ve accepted the gift, because again, we were made for Eternity. We sing of comfort and joy right now, because at these times we desperately need the first even as we experience the second.
Life isn’t fair, it’s complex.
Right now I think I may feel more tied down than most, in greater need of comfort than many, and clinging to every scrap of joy I can find. Has life been unfair to me? Absolutely. All I want for Christmas is to be part of a big family. Instead, every year there are fewer people around the table, and there's not a thing I can do about it. I’d love to get out and experience all the season has to offer. And every year I see a little less. So I shift my focus to Eternity.
Better days are coming.
Someday I’ll find myself at the Wedding Feast of the Lamb, with every family member who ever lived and in perfect harmony with my God. The burdens I carry now will be lifted, my sins washed away, and all the years I suffered here will feel like the briefest moment of pain. Will I find my heart’s longings on this side? Will I experience a taste of Heaven before it’s all over? I don’t know, and I’m not going to get angry or worry about it.
Because I’ll let the Spirit of Christmas live in my heart all year.